since its the last day of january, i'll blog again. and yes its chinese new year. all the food, gambling and alcohol makes you nothing but fat.

26/1 ;
me and darling's 9th month anniversary. sounds quite ironic cause we made this all up. we were never together happily for 9 months.

NO,NEVER!!

all we have are quarrels, breakups, me going with another guy who sucked. i dont like mentioning all these but its all true and i must admit that all that is making me losing my pace. i lose all the energy to think and then, i make mistakes. i have so much i can say regarding our relationship. how can a sweet loving couple get into this situation? i recall the past us and feel sad about the present which has been troubling me for long. i dont know for him but i know its horrible.

memories reminds me of the very moment i really saw and looked at him. he took a chair for me on the games day because of the holiday coming up then. it was very sweet of him but i almost took no notice. i thought its just out of thoughtfulness due to the injured knee i had. i couldnt walk for a week and was living hell.

a week or so later, we were at weiyang's birthday bbq without a single conversation except for a 'bye' at the end when he left, kinda like disturbing me also. i didnt know who said all that.

i put up a notice saying i've changed my number then he asked. we chat and he asked me out.

and so, i broke up with the previous to get with him. bitch you were saying? i am. so what? which girl wouldnt do this for someone she deserve?

we had happiness for a few months then he came along. i lied to him about the guy not msging me and he couldnt understand that i was trying not to make him angry. since then, he think of me as a liar and stopped trusting me. our relationship got worser and worser till i asked for a breakup.

this went on for another few months. breakups, patchups. again... and again. till now.

in between this, the november period, we broke up and i got together with another guy. thinking this will end the sufferings we had in this relastionship but instead, i brought on much more trouble. yes, this guy is an asshole. the one who i told everyone that he sucked. i dont know why i chose this guy. chao cheesefries!! chao turtle!! i wont wanna see him in my life anymore. might as well take him outta my memory. who knows any way?

arghs!! what a waste of brain space. i can use it to remember something else much more important like my maths formulae. (:

enough of him.

we went on together, again. of course with quarrels on both big and trival stuff. like 5 times a week. haha! i cant be bother anymore due to the regular visits of devil in both our heads. they want to get out non stop. theres no way both of us could stop this shit. what to do? quarrel lorh. HAHAHA!! eh, this is joke lorh. laugh leh~

wanted to go for a dinner with him but my parents wanted one as well. i was real unhappy as this was all unplanned and they expect this to happen. expect that i will sit there like nothing has happened. hah! another joke. in the end he had to go home alone after waiting alone outside causeway point for me.

ate my dinner and went home.

27/1 ;
happy cny to all, whoever who celebrates this occasion. i must say this is the most boring cny i've had.
we are dismissed at 93oam then had to assemble at bout 1o1oam. everything went on quite well. except that net decided not to join us. i shant elaborate on this further.
school's celebration is today and choir is suppose to sing. the audiences should sing with us but no one seemed to followed. so many embarassments and disagreements. arghs. i dont wanna start. =/

pk and i decided to shop around cwp. looked for watches, shoes. almost everything we could. i bought a pair of shoes!


$19.8o at ebase. (:

got really bored and went home. she asked me out again to do some shopping and then to fragrant for chit chat. meet up danny and the rest for a movie. 'i not stupid too'

i enjoyed myself, with tears and laughter. real great movie. miss it and spent rest of your life regreting. hmm, that serious? =pp actually you can get yourself the dvd or vcd coming out about a few months later if they have it. i dont know. im not jack neo. =/

reached home at 12plus and got scolded. o.o

28/1 ;
woke up early in the morning and straight to my ahma house for the reunion dinner!! yeah!! xD my favourite dinner!! includes a big pot full of sea cucumber stewed with duck.

BEST OKAY!! wahaha...

alot people might think its eww~
or something like that. right?

so anyway, my ah gong and daddy side uncles gave me hongbao. (: got bout $15o.

i slept there for almost the whole time i was there. daddy and my uncles played cards till 11 plus and went home all tired. slept again.

quite a boring day huh?

29/1 ;
gong xi fa cai!! hong bao na lai!! OO two big 'gham' for you. (:

woke up really early to get ready, dolled up and went straight to my ah ma house to pai nian. found myself falling asleep while waiting for everyone to have their breakfast.

;i am afraid